The water flowing within the breakwater was crystal clear.
The sound of water splashing against the rocks—clink, sparkle, clink.
That sound made me look down.
It felt as if the sunlight and the water were speaking to me: “Look at this small, clear moment.”
Farm Table Cafe at Yeongildae.
Sunlight streaming onto the warm wood—this is exactly the kind of interior I love.
Reflections 1
In the face of hardship, my heart had to choose between good and evil.
“Good” meant steering myself toward a positive path, while “evil” meant letting myself be swept away by that very hardship and the darkness within.
My greatest vulnerability has always been related to my parents.
Because those wounds remained unresolved for so long, they began to grow into a shadow within me.
But in the end, I realized: this is the life task I must overcome.
Reflections 2
When I work, there is a certain sense of “connection.”
When I focus deeply and think seriously, it feels as if my energy begins to resonate, creating something meaningful.
It’s when I feel this connection that things truly go well.
But then, there is something that tries to replace that feeling.
It’s the mindset of relying on a lucky draw, hoping for a fluke.
It’s that feeling of wanting the result without the effort or the serious contemplation—expecting a reward simply because I “spent some time” on it.
I must not let a lucky draw replace that genuine connection.
I will protect my heart.
Reflections 3
Areas that require training: understanding my internal rhythm and learning how to manage the direction of my soul.
Professor Adam Tooze said that this is a domain that can be trained, much like mastering a musical instrument or an athletic skill.
To start, I will focus on how I use my calendar.
I’ve decided to get rid of my To-do lists.
They seem to drain my energy.
Instead, I will mark deadlines on my calendar and list my priorities.
I will also write down the key ideas and essential questions I have regarding each task.
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When we live through long seasons of peace, we fall into the illusion that human beings are inherently good. When we endure long seasons of hardship, we fall into the illusion that human beings are inherently evil.
In peaceful times, white roses bloom. In difficult times, red roses bloom.
I want to blend them all together — and become a pink rose.
The world is half good and half evil. And that evil is subtle and meticulous — so cunning that we are almost destined to fall before it.
That same darkness exists within me, too.
To fall to evil is part of life, and to rise again is also part of life.
Let us live with Jerusalem within us — not heaven, but Jerusalem. I choose to live not in heaven, but in Jerusalem.
Jerusalem has known endless wars, and yet it still carries traces of heaven.
Let us be a lotus blooming from the mud. The impurity of the world, the impurity within my own character — acknowledging them, yet still holding the will to become a more beautiful human being.
chillout 
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